We Were Touched By An Angel

First, let me start by saying that I have, at times, had visions a tiny bit here and there. They would sometimes come so far in advance of an event that I forgot about it until it happened. I don't know that I would call it a premonition. It was kind of like deja vu or a foreshadowing. I used to work at Kmart when I was in high school and early college. One night, I had a dream that I was pushing around a lady in a wheelchair, around Kmart. I can't remember what time of the year it was but, now, looking back, it seems like Thanksgiving or close to Christmas. I was helping her shop. All I remember is that she had short hair, I didn't know her, and she was a really nice, sweet lady. Then, at the end of the dream, I got the feeling of knowing that she was an angel.

At the time it was just a dream. Until I met the woman who would one day be my mother in law. It didn't hit me for quite awhile. Until she ended up being in a wheelchair.  I would take her different places to shop. Walmart, the grocery store, Kmart. Then, one day, the realization sank in. It was when I was reflecting on her character and how kind, considerate and loving she was. Her compassion,  desire and determination to help those around her. Her love of Christ assuring her own spirit, as well as being an inspiration those around her. She was a gem. Invaluable. I thought she must be an angel on earth....Wait, what?!  Cue memory of my dream. A sweet and happy smile crossed my face to realize it.

But now....

I have been wanting to post this for awhile but I just couldn't seem to find the words. My heart kept jumping into my throat.

On June 10th, 2018, we lost someone very dear to us. My mother in law slipped up to heaven around 5:58am. She had been struggling with her health off and on for a very long while. We almost lost her a few times. Thankfully, we were able to spend precious time with her after each one. Until this time. We knew we couldn't keep her here forever and that God would eventually take her home. He had mercy and compassion on her. We miss her deeply but are glad that she is at peace. 😢

It has been a little over two months since then and I am still not able to fully process it. I sort of deal with it and don't deal with it at the same time. It doesn't feel like she is really gone. We enjoyed her so much when she was alive that it is like she is still here. Maybe she really was an angel. By the way, she always mad a fuss about getting the family together on holidays, especially Thanksgiving and Christmas. Christmas was always her favorite.  This season will be our first without her. 💔

I'm sooo looking forward to heaven one day. I am trying to make the most of my time here while it lasts but what a place of beauty to behold up there! Most importantly is obviously God. But how amazing also to be reunited with lost loved ones, and an amazing choir of angels and saints. The view must be breathtaking!  I'm sure there is so much more. Even just the extreme eternal peace of being in the loving presence of our Lord and Savior is enough to make me long for it at times.

I will get there one day. For now, I just need to keep moving forward in the plans that He has for me, whatever those may be. I will do my best to follow. I am trying to seek Him out even more recently. There is so much to be done yet.

😢💓We miss you, Momma.